How could they live in the presence of such a blatant and aggressive suicide? A., asking the guard if he'd seen Alice - replying, yes, she is really skinny - I felt on display myself.
I was even more fat than usual, and our appearances no longer mirrored those of sisters or the cool lesbian couple on campus - both things we'd once been mistaken for.
Little wonder, then, that the NHS has revealed that the number of teenagers being admitted to hospital with eating disorders has nearly doubled in just three years.
The Royal College of Psychiatrists has laid the blame for this unprecedented rise firmly at the door of social media.
From Lenny Letter Alice* stopped eating at the same time that I couldn't. I woke up with a candy bar and snacked on microwave popcorn until breakfast.
When my appetite eluded me, I'd light a joint and conjure it back, at least long enough to eat a pint of ice cream before dinner.
I said, "Alice, I'm scared." That's the one I really did say. "You've always been thin but this, this is horrifying."I cried.
I wanted to run home and disappear, but they were in front of my home. I said a quick goodnight and went inside, prowled up and down our apartment for a restless half-hour until she finally came in." data-reactid="47" is what I heard when she tied herself to Mike, when she lied about their phone calls, their movie dates, the secret initials she used for him in the to-do lists she left on our kitchen table.Alice was starving, and she was shoving it down everyone's throats. She was the family I wanted to have, the girl I longed to be. I cast sidelong glances at her lopsided chin and her razor-sharp clavicle, soothed myself with thoughts of all the Skittles and M& M's I'd eat when she left.